When I woke up early this morning to get ready for work, my mother called me...
She told me about a strange dream she had about me at night.
I'm at person who deeply belive in everything that's been told.
If a person on the street comes to me and tells me "you will have a babygirl soon"
Maybe I wont belive that i will have a babygirl my self, but I sure will belive that this is not told without any reason, it has a matter. I might meet up with a babygirl who lost her parents and help her, or maybe a relative of mine will get a babygirl or just anything that involves a babygirl...
I belive that everything happend for a reason and so on.
It doesnt' happen oftent BUT I never had a nightmares without anything bad happening afterwards. I've also never had a dream, which dont fit in to my reality neither it's a good or bad one... (I mean like points I get at the exams and so on).
Now this morning my mum told me...
I was in a big house. The house wasn't ugly or so, just a normal big house which was full of frogs...
My mother stepped on the frogs, one by one, and they got less and less.
When there was only a few left... one of the frogs told my mum:
- you can not / you may not / you do not want to step on me
and my mother kindly answered the frog:
- okay then... I won't...
I really wish that someone could interpret dreams. . .
I found an explanation of what a frog in a dream means...
To see a frog in your dream, represents a potential for change or the unexpected. The frog may be a prince in disguise and thus, signify transformation, renewal or rebirth. Alternatively, the frog symbolizes uncleanness or fertility.
To see frogs leaping in your dream, indicate your lack of commitment. You have a tendency to jump from one thing to another. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are taking major steps toward some goal. It parallels your progress.
To dream that you are catching a frog, signifies your carelessness concerning your health.
To hear the sounds of a frog in your dream, indicates that you have not accomplished what you wanted.
To eat a frog in your dream, represents some unsavory or unpleasant task that you need to perform. If you swallow a whole frog in your dream, then there is something that you need to do or say, that is literally difficult to swallow. Consider the phrase "a frog in your throat" to suggest that you are unable to speak. You have lost your voice.
There is a story I've always wanted to share with you all...
A girl who lived in a poor country. She had a lot of friends at school, and her selfconfidence was on top. Her dream was to become a nurse.
Therefore, one day when she had troubles solving her mathematics, she went to her neighbour, knocked on the door and asked him to help her...
And the next day again, and the day after, and...
The boy started to come to the girl's home every afternoon, to help her with her homeworks. And the family of the girl got used to the neighbourboy, which they liked very much.
Last year at highschool, this girl and her siblings was misfortuned to lose their mum. She died in cancer. The boy felt that he had a duty to always stay with the girl and take care, the years passed and he always stayed there.. until the time he had to leave....
He had to move to another country where he could work and earn some money, so that he one day could afford to get married to the girl.
He moved to a beautiful contry, he got his own car, an apartment, and a very good job which he was happy with.
Each Christmas, easter, summer, birthdays, graduations etc he used to buy a ticket home, to visit his friends and family back in his hometown, where this girl was still studing. But something was still missing in his life which made him feel lonley...
But then one day...
He was going out with his friend, who was going to meet his friend which was at a temporary jobvisit in the country. A very cute girl. The three of them sat at a restaurant talking, when this boy realized they had very much in common... It was getting late, and the girl wanted to return home... So the boy asked her if they could meet for lunch the next day. - That would be great since we work next to eachother.
The two started to develope something very special, they had an incredible chemestry and it was like match made in heaven. They could talk about the same song at the same time. They understood eachother in a way that no one of them had understood a person before.The girl was amazed by the boy. but she was so unsure of what he was feeling, it seemed like he felt in a very special way towards her even though ...
He did tell her that he loves the country that he lived in and he was very happy. But he missed his Girlfriend to be with him...
The next day, the boy called the girl and asked her out again. They started to meet every day, and the girl was getting a bit worried. She didnt know what was happending to their friendship. It felt more than a friendship, and the boy already had a girlfriend.
But since the boy had told the girl that he will travel back to his country one week later, to be at the celebration of his girlfriend's graduation, she was yet not worried.
One week passed, and the boy called the girl...
- can we meet ?
- sure, something wrong ?
Turned out that the boy had a fight with his girlfriend and was thinking of canceling his ticket, and wanted to ask the girl what she thought about it...
The girl was very happy to hear that, since she liked the boy very much...
The next day, the boy called the girl, he told her:
- I canceled the ticket...
He decided to stay with the girl and not travel back to his country to see his girlfriend graduate.
What was the reason?
- You are only staying here few more weeks, I rather spend my time with you, the boy told the girl...
The boy and the girl was getting very close to eachother, which made the girl worried. She didnt want to fall inlove with him, since he didn't seem to want to leave his girlfriend.
The girl decided to ask the boy about what's really going on between them...
He told her the story of his girlfriends life, and how her family got used to him, and now he couldn't leave her. Specially since they were from a small village, where people cant accept that a girl is meeting a boy, if they dont want to get married.
- But do you really love her ? the girl asked
- I love her, but i like you...
The girl got so sad, and explained for the boy that they cant meet anymore...
She asked him to stop calling her and stop asking about her.
But the next day the boy called the girl anyway
- I miss you so much... is it wrong to miss a friend ?
- Yes it is, stop calling me please...
The girl had decided not to spend more time on this boy, even if she liked him so much.
A couple of hours later when the girl was going for lunch, she found the boy outside the door of her job waiting for her.
- I knew you were going to act like this, that's why I didnt want to tell you about my girlfriend. Now please let me have lunch with you...
The two of them couldnt separate, they couldnt spend one hour without an update about eachother... How was the girl suppose to just erase him out of her life when he had made such an inprint in her life making her truly believe him feeling the same way she did.
Time was passing and the girl's visit in the country was going to it's end...
They met in a resturant, all of the friends the last day.
Last second, the girl rasied up to say good buy to them and give them all a hug. Even the boy... she felt how he pulled her shirt from behind and didnt let go. She didnt want to leave.
She felt how she wanted to keep him forever.
With her eyes filled of tears, she left the restaurant, didnt look back.
She couldnt admit it, but she was going to miss him forever...
Imagin all the time we spend waiting...
waiting for the computer to load
waiting for the train to come
waiting for the summer to come
waiting for the program at tv to start
it never ends...
It's all about waiting and time is ticking. I hate waiting.
3 months ago, I called the doctor to book a time to check my health. He told me that he will send me a notice when to attend. And yepp, it came in the letterbox at home, 3 months later !
Of ALL the days, all the time in this 3 months, he picked exactly the same date as I was suppose to go to the dentist, which I had also been waiting a long time for.
Anyhow I decided to change the dentist-day since the doctor was more important this time.
I wanted to be sure to be there in time, so i left work early.
The parking of the hospital was full, lots of visitors as usual. I couldn't find anywhere to park!
I was swirling around and around, like all the other cars that couldn't find a parking.
I started to get mad...
But then, with the corner of my eye i saw an old couple sitting in the car and i thought - these are leaving.
I stoped a bit discreetly at the side of the road and when they left i took their parking :D
The weather outside was horrible. The wind was blowing so hard, and it was raining so much, I didn't know how I got to the ticketmashine.
2 hours should be enough. I putted the ticket in the car and hurried in to the hospital.
People came and left 10 minutes later, so i thought- maybe I will also be done early... but time didnt stop ticking. That early time passed and my time was in. The doctor didnt come...
Nurses passed me time after times calling diffrent names, looking at me who just sat there shaking my head. - Nope... One of the nurses told me: "You've been here for a long time now so i understand that you are not one of my patient"
Time still ticking 2 hours had passed and i started to worry about my parkingticket. Time was running out.
I called for one of the nurses
- Excuse me, I was suppose to meet...
- Yes, the doctor is late dear and you know there is still 3 other woman waiting, and...
- I will go down and change the parkingticket!!!!
- Ok, i will note that.
Desperate i went to the ticketmashine, feeling i was going to blow away in the horrible weather. Putted all the coints that i found in my pockets in the ticketmashine, pressed the bottom and got a ticket
- untill 9am next morning !
-Now! I can stop worrying about the parking, I thought, going back into the hospital.
Back to my seat where I sat before. The Sofa had just started returning back to it's original shape. (After my behind giving the couch a new shape, while I sat there hour after hour)
I was tired and sweaty. Looking like something words can't describe
I took a deep breath. Starting to philosophise about life and it's meaning. Does it even has a mening? Not an important one. We just work and go to the doctor, ending up dead anyway. It sucks...
Life sucks. I dont want any children, I will just gain weight and get more ugly, I'll never get married, i'll never move from my parents house, I'll never...
I went from sitting straight up in the sofa, to slowly sink lower and lower, till the end, i was sitting on the floor with my head on the sofa and my arms over my head (Imagin ?!!? )
The nurse passed in the corridor
- Ms Nohra, I understand that you gave up hope of life, but come with me dear.
Even though i was so tired and mad, i putted the fake smile on my sweet lips and told her
- No, I didnt...
while i went after her in the corridor
She took me to a small room, with chairs hard like the floor. Oh no, i mean the floor was soft as the chairs.
- I know you have been waiting too long for the doctor, but you can sit here untill he comes if you want.
She just took me from my soft sofa to a hard chair in a small room, but ok...
It was calm in that room, no tv on no nothing.
Well i now had time to do everything- cleaning my teeth, fixing my nails, taking my own blood pressure, listening to my own heart-beats.
- I don't need any doctor, I can do all these stuff by my self...
I was talking to my self when it all of a sudden knocked on the door...
- Oh doctor...
I felt to the floor infront of his feet...
- God bless you. Finally I can go home ! Thank you, Thank you !
4 more weeks.
That's the time I've left in this office at the municipality in Uddevalla.
Actually i am employeed until the end of the year, but I am also entitled to 8 days of holiday that saved during my stay.
As you may know, earlier this month, I applied for the same job as I have today, but in another municipality- Vänersborg, where I live.
There was almost 40 applications- and only as few as 6 people passed on to the interview.
I was one of them!
A week later... when I was at afterwork I found out that the boss of the municipality where I applied for the new job, had called some of my co-workers including my boss to ask about me.
- Did you get the job Hannan ?
- What job? I don't know yet...
- Aha, they called me and asked about you... so i thought you got it ?!
I was speechless, didn't know what to say. But I was thinking
"if they called you, they must have called my Boss at the municipality in Uddevalla"
The next day at work, "I had eye" to ask my boss
- did they call you ?
- yes they did!
Why didn't he tell me ? Strange...
I wish i could hear that conversation. Have you ever thought of beeing invisable for a while ? Mm i wish...
Anyhow that same day, a bit into the evning...
I was on the staircase on my way upp when all of the sudden the phone rang while i was surronded by a million children screaming and shouting so i could barley hear the voice on the other line...
But I understood that the last choise was between me and another guy. Sadly... the other guy got the job. I was a bit to young... :(
How am I suppose to feel ? Happy ?
I could save that time, doing something else, notplagued bypeople Ido not know... But at the same time... I made it till the end + /- =0
anyhow.. it might be a bit nice to take some time off, relax, plan new thing in life if I will be without work . And maybe life will open some new doors.. i've been brooding about moving to another city and try something new..
I wrote about ayman monday 7/11-2011 and after an hour, over 100 (of the registered) readers had read the post, which is amazing !
People keep asking me "what did he say when he read the blog?..."
Since Ayman is busy 24/7 and doesn't have even one second spare on his schedule, we had that conversation by sms. And I already noted in my calender June 2012"Last month in my life"
I am therefor able to show the you the messages online...
(There might be some things in the sms that you won't understand I will mark them in diffrent colors and explain it later on for you)
H: - Haha that picture Ayman! How did it hit you to dress like a belly-dancer? Well after your preformance 2009 I can assure it's true haha. How drunk were you?
Did you find me outside your door yet?
A: - why can you assure it's true LOOOL?
OMG I hope you didnt make to much fun of me on facebook lol. Just kidding, you know I love your ironic comments :P (Yet, he didn't understand that I'm not ironic!?)
H: - Haha I can assure that after the dance on the bed in the middle of the night haha sme3t shi 3am bizayzi2 haha (= i heard something crackling)
A: - I read the blog yesterday night... but I am still prepering for a good respond to that TRICK!!
Fatta rej you do that to me lol (Ayman doesnt speak swedish, but he is pretty good in snapping upp words that he hears.) Explanations: That pictures- performance 2009 & dancing on the bedI was tagged in a photo on facebook today, which looked like this:
This is Ayman at an Halloween-party in the states. Dressed like a Belly-dancer. When i saw the tag- My reaction was "That's your daily outfit Aymano" And he wondered what i ment with that... The whole public is going to find out about the doctor's real background :D,
back in the summer of 2009, we were still young and had no worries. No job, no money... :P Just kidding But we were at a resturant, me and my cousins- Ayman, Youssef and Charbel... We ate some food, and got back home. It was late. We were all tired so we went to sleep. Since there is no electricity in Lebanon, we didn't even have to turn the light off! :P Suddenly I heard something crackeling "IiiiIiiiiIiiiiIIiiiiiiiIIIIiiii"
- Yossy, what's going on? - I donno? The crackeling suddenly stoped... Certainly it started immediatly when we were silent again.
- iIIIiiiiIiiii
Youssef uses the light of his phone to light up the room- and what's going on? The doctor is standing on his bed with his hands in the air and shaking some assss. Yaaa he was Really Shaking it.
I just couldn't stop laugh. And what made it more fun, was that Youssef just took a deep breath and turned around, just as a "not again-sign" hAHAHAHAHA
I told you Doctors is not normal.
Ayman Doesn't speak swedish Ayman used to work at the airport of Beirut before he decided to travel and become a doctor. Each time a swedish passanger passed him, he said something in swedish. (He used my 9-years-old brother as a teacher!) -Ursäkta mig men du kan inte passera idag (excuse me but you can't pass today) he told the poor woman, and almost gave her a heart attack.
- I have cousins in Vänersborg in Sweden, do you know them? He asked every passenger !
Once when my sister Maria was in Trollhättan, she met one of the girls who had passed Ayman's controll at the airport. She told Maria the whole story. That was fun, embarrassing, foolish etc...
- In the end they met, Aymano :D What a small world ha ?
There is a Lot of Ayman-storys. - Aunt has a son without any arms or legs, she lifts him in the ears. - I want my brother to die, so i can take his clothes - don't tell the secret to anyone - the story of when we almost died, the festival and "you ate at a resturante ha?" - I hate you Hannan because of ... ( he told me everything he hates in me) I got to know all these stories and many more, while the doc was drunk enough.
Enough for today :D
stop rummage the doctor's life!
That's the name of an really old little human living in Trollhättan- Sweden.
What's so funny with that?
Alice is Born 8th december, 1906 which mean that
she's turning 105 years old in the end of 2011, and that is amazing!
They make a small interview with her on the radio- P4 each wednesday and she seems to be a sweet little lady with a very positive attitude.
She's telling the radioman: "I never worry about anything, there is a solution for everything, either it's a good or bad one. When the doctor first told that my sight is poor, and that I'm getting blind, it was just natural for me. Everything is what life brings, that is my taught.
In the end she said : the municipality have to wait with their cake-party for a looong time!
(In sweden, they eat cake when someone dies. I know it's wicked- but true!)
When the radioman asks her "when do you feel ashamed"
Her answer is "there is no need to be ashamed, if i say something wrong i guess i will explain that I said something wrong"
I had a phonecard with only 1Skr left. So presumed i couldn't call anywhere with it, but then I just tried to call to my Cousin Ayman in USA.
76 minutes!!!! WOW
A: - Hello ..
H :- Hi who is it?
A: - You're calling
H: - So ?
A: - Who are you?
H: - guess ?... don't you remember me?
A: - ... eh... i dont recognize your voice, give me a hint
H: - come on I know I am your favorite
A: - Wait i will check the number...
it seems like you are calling from the states
H: - ...
A: - Hannan?
H: - What ..?
A: - If i say Betty what do you say?
(we Used to call eachother Betty- based on "Uggly Betty" from TV)
H: - Oh you Ugly, dont you recognize my voice anymore ?
A: - But you're calling from the states..?
H: - Yes...
A: - Oh my God where are you?
H: - in the states...
A: - Oh my God where are you ?
H: - Still in the states
A: - Oh my God where in the states?
H: - Washington
A: - Oh my God but ... where are you?
H: - I said in the states !!!
A: - I knew you were coming but not sooo soon ?
H: - Ya you never know what I am up to ! Got to go now. Seee you later...
A: - Wait wait...
Honestly, what is going on?
H: - Nothing....
A: - What are you doing in the states? why didnt u tell me u where coming and how long are you going to stay?
H: - why are you so nervous?
A: - What would you say if I called you one day and said "I am in Vänersborg?"
H: - Nothing...?
A: - Nothing ha ??? Oh my God
H: - Did you pee your pants yet?
A: - Lucky me, I am wearing Jeans hah
Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha I just Couldnt stop laugh
Later Ayman asked me if I could open skype, and to make him more nervous I was evil enough to say
- I didn't bring my pc...
Do you know what his answer was ? (starting with "oh... " )
Still Laughing at you cuz. And I know u will kill me when you read this! The black list is ready right ?
*wispering* Do you know what's so funny, I've made so many mean things to ayman lately, and he always fall in to the trick. He must hate me.
