When I woke up early this morning to get ready for work, my mother called me...
She told me about a strange dream she had about me at night.
I'm at person who deeply belive in everything that's been told.
If a person on the street comes to me and tells me "you will have a babygirl soon"
Maybe I wont belive that i will have a babygirl my self, but I sure will belive that this is not told without any reason, it has a matter. I might meet up with a babygirl who lost her parents and help her, or maybe a relative of mine will get a babygirl or just anything that involves a babygirl...
I belive that everything happend for a reason and so on.
It doesnt' happen oftent BUT I never had a nightmares without anything bad happening afterwards. I've also never had a dream, which dont fit in to my reality neither it's a good or bad one... (I mean like points I get at the exams and so on).
Now this morning my mum told me...
I was in a big house. The house wasn't ugly or so, just a normal big house which was full of frogs...
My mother stepped on the frogs, one by one, and they got less and less.
When there was only a few left... one of the frogs told my mum:
- you can not / you may not / you do not want to step on me
and my mother kindly answered the frog:
- okay then... I won't...
I really wish that someone could interpret dreams. . .
I found an explanation of what a frog in a dream means...
To see a frog in your dream, represents a potential for change or the unexpected. The frog may be a prince in disguise and thus, signify transformation, renewal or rebirth. Alternatively, the frog symbolizes uncleanness or fertility.
To see frogs leaping in your dream, indicate your lack of commitment. You have a tendency to jump from one thing to another. Alternatively, it may suggest that you are taking major steps toward some goal. It parallels your progress.
To dream that you are catching a frog, signifies your carelessness concerning your health.
To hear the sounds of a frog in your dream, indicates that you have not accomplished what you wanted.
To eat a frog in your dream, represents some unsavory or unpleasant task that you need to perform. If you swallow a whole frog in your dream, then there is something that you need to do or say, that is literally difficult to swallow. Consider the phrase "a frog in your throat" to suggest that you are unable to speak. You have lost your voice.
There is a story I've always wanted to share with you all...
A girl who lived in a poor country. She had a lot of friends at school, and her selfconfidence was on top. Her dream was to become a nurse.
Therefore, one day when she had troubles solving her mathematics, she went to her neighbour, knocked on the door and asked him to help her...
And the next day again, and the day after, and...
The boy started to come to the girl's home every afternoon, to help her with her homeworks. And the family of the girl got used to the neighbourboy, which they liked very much.
Last year at highschool, this girl and her siblings was misfortuned to lose their mum. She died in cancer. The boy felt that he had a duty to always stay with the girl and take care, the years passed and he always stayed there.. until the time he had to leave....
He had to move to another country where he could work and earn some money, so that he one day could afford to get married to the girl.
He moved to a beautiful contry, he got his own car, an apartment, and a very good job which he was happy with.
Each Christmas, easter, summer, birthdays, graduations etc he used to buy a ticket home, to visit his friends and family back in his hometown, where this girl was still studing. But something was still missing in his life which made him feel lonley...
But then one day...
He was going out with his friend, who was going to meet his friend which was at a temporary jobvisit in the country. A very cute girl. The three of them sat at a restaurant talking, when this boy realized they had very much in common... It was getting late, and the girl wanted to return home... So the boy asked her if they could meet for lunch the next day. - That would be great since we work next to eachother.
The two started to develope something very special, they had an incredible chemestry and it was like match made in heaven. They could talk about the same song at the same time. They understood eachother in a way that no one of them had understood a person before.The girl was amazed by the boy. but she was so unsure of what he was feeling, it seemed like he felt in a very special way towards her even though ...
He did tell her that he loves the country that he lived in and he was very happy. But he missed his Girlfriend to be with him...
The next day, the boy called the girl and asked her out again. They started to meet every day, and the girl was getting a bit worried. She didnt know what was happending to their friendship. It felt more than a friendship, and the boy already had a girlfriend.
But since the boy had told the girl that he will travel back to his country one week later, to be at the celebration of his girlfriend's graduation, she was yet not worried.
One week passed, and the boy called the girl...
- can we meet ?
- sure, something wrong ?
Turned out that the boy had a fight with his girlfriend and was thinking of canceling his ticket, and wanted to ask the girl what she thought about it...
The girl was very happy to hear that, since she liked the boy very much...
The next day, the boy called the girl, he told her:
- I canceled the ticket...
He decided to stay with the girl and not travel back to his country to see his girlfriend graduate.
What was the reason?
- You are only staying here few more weeks, I rather spend my time with you, the boy told the girl...
The boy and the girl was getting very close to eachother, which made the girl worried. She didnt want to fall inlove with him, since he didn't seem to want to leave his girlfriend.
The girl decided to ask the boy about what's really going on between them...
He told her the story of his girlfriends life, and how her family got used to him, and now he couldn't leave her. Specially since they were from a small village, where people cant accept that a girl is meeting a boy, if they dont want to get married.
- But do you really love her ? the girl asked
- I love her, but i like you...
The girl got so sad, and explained for the boy that they cant meet anymore...
She asked him to stop calling her and stop asking about her.
But the next day the boy called the girl anyway
- I miss you so much... is it wrong to miss a friend ?
- Yes it is, stop calling me please...
The girl had decided not to spend more time on this boy, even if she liked him so much.
A couple of hours later when the girl was going for lunch, she found the boy outside the door of her job waiting for her.
- I knew you were going to act like this, that's why I didnt want to tell you about my girlfriend. Now please let me have lunch with you...
The two of them couldnt separate, they couldnt spend one hour without an update about eachother... How was the girl suppose to just erase him out of her life when he had made such an inprint in her life making her truly believe him feeling the same way she did.
Time was passing and the girl's visit in the country was going to it's end...
They met in a resturant, all of the friends the last day.
Last second, the girl rasied up to say good buy to them and give them all a hug. Even the boy... she felt how he pulled her shirt from behind and didnt let go. She didnt want to leave.
She felt how she wanted to keep him forever.
With her eyes filled of tears, she left the restaurant, didnt look back.
She couldnt admit it, but she was going to miss him forever...
Imagin all the time we spend waiting...
waiting for the computer to load
waiting for the train to come
waiting for the summer to come
waiting for the program at tv to start
it never ends...
It's all about waiting and time is ticking. I hate waiting.
3 months ago, I called the doctor to book a time to check my health. He told me that he will send me a notice when to attend. And yepp, it came in the letterbox at home, 3 months later !
Of ALL the days, all the time in this 3 months, he picked exactly the same date as I was suppose to go to the dentist, which I had also been waiting a long time for.
Anyhow I decided to change the dentist-day since the doctor was more important this time.
I wanted to be sure to be there in time, so i left work early.
The parking of the hospital was full, lots of visitors as usual. I couldn't find anywhere to park!
I was swirling around and around, like all the other cars that couldn't find a parking.
I started to get mad...
But then, with the corner of my eye i saw an old couple sitting in the car and i thought - these are leaving.
I stoped a bit discreetly at the side of the road and when they left i took their parking :D
The weather outside was horrible. The wind was blowing so hard, and it was raining so much, I didn't know how I got to the ticketmashine.
2 hours should be enough. I putted the ticket in the car and hurried in to the hospital.
People came and left 10 minutes later, so i thought- maybe I will also be done early... but time didnt stop ticking. That early time passed and my time was in. The doctor didnt come...
Nurses passed me time after times calling diffrent names, looking at me who just sat there shaking my head. - Nope... One of the nurses told me: "You've been here for a long time now so i understand that you are not one of my patient"
Time still ticking 2 hours had passed and i started to worry about my parkingticket. Time was running out.
I called for one of the nurses
- Excuse me, I was suppose to meet...
- Yes, the doctor is late dear and you know there is still 3 other woman waiting, and...
- I will go down and change the parkingticket!!!!
- Ok, i will note that.
Desperate i went to the ticketmashine, feeling i was going to blow away in the horrible weather. Putted all the coints that i found in my pockets in the ticketmashine, pressed the bottom and got a ticket
- untill 9am next morning !
-Now! I can stop worrying about the parking, I thought, going back into the hospital.
Back to my seat where I sat before. The Sofa had just started returning back to it's original shape. (After my behind giving the couch a new shape, while I sat there hour after hour)
I was tired and sweaty. Looking like something words can't describe
I took a deep breath. Starting to philosophise about life and it's meaning. Does it even has a mening? Not an important one. We just work and go to the doctor, ending up dead anyway. It sucks...
Life sucks. I dont want any children, I will just gain weight and get more ugly, I'll never get married, i'll never move from my parents house, I'll never...
I went from sitting straight up in the sofa, to slowly sink lower and lower, till the end, i was sitting on the floor with my head on the sofa and my arms over my head (Imagin ?!!? )
The nurse passed in the corridor
- Ms Nohra, I understand that you gave up hope of life, but come with me dear.
Even though i was so tired and mad, i putted the fake smile on my sweet lips and told her
- No, I didnt...
while i went after her in the corridor
She took me to a small room, with chairs hard like the floor. Oh no, i mean the floor was soft as the chairs.
- I know you have been waiting too long for the doctor, but you can sit here untill he comes if you want.
She just took me from my soft sofa to a hard chair in a small room, but ok...
It was calm in that room, no tv on no nothing.
Well i now had time to do everything- cleaning my teeth, fixing my nails, taking my own blood pressure, listening to my own heart-beats.
- I don't need any doctor, I can do all these stuff by my self...
I was talking to my self when it all of a sudden knocked on the door...
- Oh doctor...
I felt to the floor infront of his feet...
- God bless you. Finally I can go home ! Thank you, Thank you !
